Walking with a purpose

I once heard that there is something therapeutic about owning your truth. Owning the person that you are. That person can be broken, scarred, or whole but it's necessary to own every part in order to share your truth.  What's my truth? That question has plagued at my heart for the longest time. Is it okay to let a person see you at the most vulnerable state that you've ever experienced? My fear is that people will meet the real me and decide that I'm "too much" and leave.  I'm broken, lonely and seek love in all the wrong places. When I was in middle school I had a crush like most girls do and before school I was standing with my "friends" outside the school and this boy was talking to his friends and they were pointing at me. One of my friends approached the boy and asked what was so funny and he said "man your homegirl looks like tar!" My crush was among that group that laughed so From that day forward I hid in the shadows everyday u...

For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. (Jeremiah 29:11-13) If you would have told me 5 years ago I would be here in this place preparing to graduate I would have laughed at you. Not because I knew I would get here but simply because I didn't believe it was possible. That's how God works though. He laughs at us when we believe and tell ourselves that we are capable of ordering our own steps.  How do I sum up the best five years of my life? God is faithful. Everything that he has desired for me to complete while in college I feel like I have completed. Have I always walked in the calling that he has asked or required of me? No. But I'm thankful that he loved me enough to put me back on track.  I love this passage from Jeremiah 29 especiall...

"O Lord, all my longing is before you; my sighing is not hidden from you." Psalm 38:9 Lately I've been on a journey. A journey where I have been seeking to put back together the pieces of me that were dropped and broken along the way. The hardest part about taking this journey has been the being alone part. I'm so very use to having someone in the physical sense that knows how to reach me where I am. Why is it so hard to be alone? According to a close friend of mine she states it simply  "I think it's human instinct to feel like you need to be attached to someone because you are from birth. So when you are finally old enough to detach from your parents your mind still tells you that you need attachment to something or somebody." I gathered from that this: that attachment is a necessary part of who we are has humans.  I am a firm believer that God meets us where we are at in life. There are certain things that God has to grow us through alone. Every strug...

So over Christmas break my mom and I were watching tv and I was upset because all of my siblings were off on their various adventures. Like it was really disturbing me, so after we had dinner my mother asked me "do you feel like you will be alone forever." I waited a little while before I answered then stated "yeah I do because it hard always feeling alone when everyone around you seems to have someone" then this is where my mom hit me with that revelation like she does "well Creseida you need to trust God at this time in your life. You can't want what he has not desired for you to have yet. He has someone out there for you. You have to believe that. Do you believe that?" Do I believe that? I would be lying if I said that I do 100% of the time. This season of being single has probably been the hardest as I get older in age. It forces me to come to terms with things that I am dealing with internally. I deal with placing my value every where but in God. ...

There are something's about this year that I'll never be able to get back. I lost what felt like a lot but really they turned out to be blessings in disguise. I'm thankful that God was able to create beauty out of ashes of burnt trials and tribulations in my life. What did I learn most you ask? Allow me to give you my top 5 things and hope that they will give you life as you head into a new year.  1. God is always here with me even when I cannot feel him or sometimes in my eyes falls silent. This year there were so many times where I felt so alone and made the decision to seek everyone but God. One day while I was in my quiet time God reminded me that he not left my side. He showed me constant things about him and his love for me in the word. You want to know the crazy thing? I still chose humans over him! They constantly disappointed me because humans are not meant to be everything to everyone. They are only meant for certain seasons in our lives and cannot give us the lov...

This too shall pass... “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9) So this last month has been a season where the enemy has really tried to take control of my life. I had to deal with a lot of emotions that were brand new to me. The hardest part during this time was trusting God to prevail. I had to really learn about GRACE and having a heart of FORGIVENESS . God is so awesome y'all because he spoke to me even in this trying time in my life not only through his word but through his people.   This text from Corinthians is so amazing because it reminds me how strong God is and how he doesn't care how weak we think we are because his power is always going to be on display. We have to place ourselves in a position to rely on God for our effectiveness rather than ourselves. When we admit that we are so weak that we can't do it on our own then it affirms God's strength.  So recently I was talking with a friend about life a...

Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit. Rather, in humility value others above yourselves, not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others. In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus: (Philippians 2:3-5)  What have you done for someone else lately? Like really stop and look at the last few days of your life... What have you done for someone else? Okay if you have some something for someone else have you done it for the right reasons?  People really only purely live to make good impressions. Rarely in a society like today's does a person do something just because they want to be sweet. Paul writes asking the Philippians to love one another and be one in spirit and purpose... It's simple when we work together caring for one another we demonstrate Christ's example of putting others first it's a symbol of unity.  Think about Jesus... He was so humble. Willing so many times to give up his own rig...