Not Alone

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"O Lord, all my longing is before you; my sighing is not hidden from you." Psalm 38:9


Lately I've been on a journey. A journey where I have been seeking to put back together the pieces of me that were dropped and broken along the way. The hardest part about taking this journey has been the being alone part. I'm so very use to having someone in the physical sense that knows how to reach me where I am. Why is it so hard to be alone? According to a close friend of mine she states it simply  "I think it's human instinct to feel like you need to be attached to someone because you are from birth. So when you are finally old enough to detach from your parents your mind still tells you that you need attachment to something or somebody." I gathered from that this: that attachment is a necessary part of who we are has humans. 


I am a firm believer that God meets us where we are at in life. There are certain things that God has to grow us through alone. Every struggle does not need an audience. Human nature allows us to feel like we have not a soul in the world to go through our struggle with. Who is God then? Why is it that we feel comfortable relying on everyone one but him? The answer is simple. Pride. Pride will leave you stuck in the place that you are in because you are afraid of falling down and surrendering your whole being to God. The crazy thing is we think that we can hide how we really feel from God and he knows every ache in our heart. 


I'm currently in this place. This place where I feel really alone. The sad part is when you become that transparent with people close to you they are not ready. Today I realized that I am not alone. I cannot allow loneliness to rule my life. God is longing to bring me to a place of peace with him. Where I feel unloved He longs for me to see His love. So lately I have been giving myself the challenge to truly seek a God first in this area of my life. He has no desire for me to feel lonely in any area of my life. Truth is loneliness plants seeds of inadequacy. You start to question every portion of your life that is just fine because you are longing for the attention of Man. 



So here's your challenge... When you start to feel alone don't seek a human seek God your father instead. When you own your truth about who you are in this state you allow yourself to be in a place of freedom. You are not alone. Don't allow your brain to trick your heart that you are. So tell that loneliness to exit stage right. Make room for a better version of you. After all you deserve to be whole.


God I thank you for this place of loneliness in you. It allows me to experience you for who you are not for what my flesh desires for you to be. Show me how to trust you and rely on you for comfort. Give me peace in the middle of the storm. I love you. Amen. 


God led God fed,

Creseida G

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