Walking with a purpose

" The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing. "  Zephaniah 3:17 I am trying to fit. Trying to become this person that is not defined by the mistakes and the scars of her past. Isolating myself from people, places, and all the things that could complete me a little bit more. I carry the weight of working diligently to keep this mask on my face. The mask that covers up my insides. Recently I learned that I need to take new route for myself to become whole and it is going to start with me loving Cre.  Now I realize that my journey may not be your journey and that is cool. However I want to encourage you to walk with me as I find me. Walk with me as I explore the depths of my heart and expose the pieces and places that need more than a bandage.  You see I fell in love with trying to hold it together. I learned the art of being "good" and not ...

"The way that You love me is everything I need" "Being single sucks Cre." the young girl that I work with told me earlier this week. I sat there honestly not sure of what my response should be. I paused for a few moments and then replied "Until you learn that this season is meant to focus on you and the person you desire to be you will always feel like being single sucks." Now I find myself here writing this blog with hopes of reaching more than just my single peeps. I use to feel the burden of being single so deep that I hated every holiday known to man (except for my birthday because obvi it is the best day of the year). Recently I have found myself in a place where I enjoy being able to love me and not seek from a man that probably is not ready for the things that I am ready for. I do not think I am ready to show someone the pieces of myself that I have not quite perfected with Jesus. I am in a place where I find it hard to submit to God so am ...

“I’ll survive because I have sweet victory…”-Trip Lee I love this time of year. I love seeing people get motivated to do things differently next year. I love seeing these great reflections of who God is and how he moved in their lives this past year. I Love hearing stories victory, triumphs, failures and success. Why? Because God is a God of sweet victory. So no matter how the year starts off. No matter how many resolutions we fail to keep God still meets us in the sweetest of victories. You see God does not promise to eliminate challenges, instead he gives us strength to meet those challenges we are faced with. Truth is if we didn’t have hard mountains to climb, and no battles to fight we would not grow. Psalm 18:32 says “It is God who arms me with strength, and makes my way perfect.” He makes our way perfect and oh boy did I need that reminder a lot this year as I tried to rely on my own strength to get through. Let me give you my three nuggets of wisdom that ...

Have you ever experienced a journey so long that you wondered where in the world the transition was? You sit and you wait for a turning point to happen and eventually you see the need to take matters into your own hands and when things do not go as planned you run away from life and its responsibilities. You find yourself staying up at all hours of the night. Naturally, we get frustrated. The frustration exhibits differently for everyone. Maybe finding the source of their wound becomes your obsession because it keeps you from feeling your own. Or you choose to not invest fully because you don’t want to risk needing someone and then them leaving. Heaviness in your chest. searching for identity in everything except the cross.....Oh this isn't your testimony? My bad. Let me let you in on a secret: "We just know that the pain of confronting whatever is plaguing us makes us run..." So what then do you do when God places you back in the environment where we have to su...

“You can’t skip experiences, the experiences will be will be what they will be…It’s just what God does”   It’s just what God does? If someone had told me a year ago that pain, pressure, persistence were a part of my journey I would have flat out laughed at them . You see I have always been the person that does not handle stress well (if you are close to me in life you call me dramatic daily). I overanalyze everything to the point where it makes me doubt myself and who God is.  However I have been meditating on this thought “What if pressure creates purpose?” Somebody just skimmed over this so I am going to repeat it  What if pressure created purpose? When God takes us through the journey, different ingredients create ultimate success. If you stay frustrated with the process while creating your masterpiece you begin to miss the need to be present. How Creseida? How am I missing it? Because homeboy and homegirl you have the chance to let your situation speak life into someo...

The older you get the more your heart craves for genuine friendships that feed not just your heart but your soul. I can remember my senior year of college and in all in chaos of everything I had going on God gave me four girls who lived together who adopted me into their home. They were the friends that I called on for silly things like a walk to chapel on my chapel days. They were the shoulders I cried on when golf was not going well and they were my BIGGEST supporters when it was. They were my C O M M U N I T Y in a world of chaos. Abbey, Kayla, Laine, and Laura were my college community. So naturally when the last bag was in my parent’s rental and I hugged Mama Wig (Kayla’s Mom) goodbye I could not help but feel like I was leaving so much of myself in the city of Montgomery. Two weeks later I started my internship with HEB and my first day in the store I was talking to my store director and we were sharing a little bit about our lives and I told her how I was struggling ...

“Cause I think I am heading down the wrong road and I need to find my way back today…” Dark. Lonely. Empty. How many of us identify with these emotions? How many of us have ran from these emotions? I can identify with the struggle and the redemption that comes from these feelings. The peace that God places you in because he has a desire to love you more than your current situation. Allow me to share… I have struggled with my identity for as long as I could remember so much so that it created this deep depression because I always felt like I did not "measure up" . I would say I was “saved” and then be living a completely different life behind closed doors. I was a cutter. Now you may be thinking “wait, what is she saying?” I was broken, empty, and hurting. I did not trust anyone with my pain. It was not until I was in college that I learned of the true calling God had placed on my life. I could in fact be whole if I asked him for it.  “He heals the brokenhearted...