The Way That You Love Me

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"The way that You love me is everything I need"

"Being single sucks Cre." the young girl that I work with told me earlier this week. I sat there honestly not sure of what my response should be. I paused for a few moments and then replied "Until you learn that this season is meant to focus on you and the person you desire to be you will always feel like being single sucks."

Now I find myself here writing this blog with hopes of reaching more than just my single peeps. I use to feel the burden of being single so deep that I hated every holiday known to man (except for my birthday because obvi it is the best day of the year). Recently I have found myself in a place where I enjoy being able to love me and not seek from a man that probably is not ready for the things that I am ready for. I do not think I am ready to show someone the pieces of myself that I have not quite perfected with Jesus. I am in a place where I find it hard to submit to God so am I really ready to submit to a man? God has revealed that in my heart so I can be completely real right now. 

It’s not enough to want better if you aren’t going to be better. Do you understand what I mean? You want to be loved, but you do not speak in love.  You want someone to take a chance on you, but you won’t take a chance on yourself. A lot of us are in broken seasons and are looking for a person to put us back together. How many years do you hold your head down in the face of grace? I just wonder if our greatest disservice to God is doubting the strength of His grace and mercy. When are we going to walk in this light that Jesus is everything that we need and that no human will ever fully satisfy our desires like Him?

You have to let go of what you think you are entitled to have and allow God to push you on the journey that you are on. He is ordering your steps and he is already making plans to connect you to the right people, places, and things.

On my journey I’m learning that falling in love with me has less to do with how much I display the good in my heart and more to do with how I love the Father. For some of us loving God can’t be achieved until we are willing to be courageously broken. My method may not be the one it took for you, but I’m so clear that His hand is blessing my brokenness. The weight of it humbles me each day. I’m grateful for every moment and opportunity that I’m used in spite of my fragile humanity.

Do not let this holiday have you in your feelings! It honestly is not worth it if you do not love yourself. Buy yourself some flowers and chocolates and write "Love You From Jesus". Embrace your season because you will look back and wish you had enjoyed it more. Understand that the way that he loves you is so beautifully put together flaws and all sweet friends. 

Father,
Thank you for your gift of purpose and seasons. 
Help me to learn the art of self love and being in love with you. 
May my mind and heart be less consumed with the things of this world and more focused on the desires that you have for me. 

Signed,
The Way That You Love Me

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