Walking with a purpose

All summer I have been on this journey of finding myself and becoming a more confident me. While on this journey I've had to identify with things that I didn't really want to address. No matter what these things were they all had a central theme of personal forgiveness. Now I'm going to let you all in on something as my readers and that is that all summer I've been struggling with listening to God he's been telling me to talk about personal forgiveness and its come up in multiple settings. I think in a sense I ran from it because I had not truly forgiven myself for all of the sins I've committed even though I've asked for forgiveness. So in preparation for this blog God led me to Psalm 103... I love how David's praise is focused on what God is doing for him but where God wrecks me are in verses 12 and 13 "as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has...

" The Lord is my helper I will not be afraid..." Hebrews 13:6  Last year I had the chance to be a mentor to a group of freshmen during that week we spent the day at an outdoor camp with all kinds of activities. One of my freshmen talked me into getting in the zip line rotation and of course knowing that it was a fear of mine I still got in the line. The time came for me to climb the ladder and meet the attendant at the top and I felt sick. I looked down and saw all these people and I thought to myself "what am I doing?" The attendant could see the nervousness in my face and she touched my shoulder and said " I know you don't know me but I want you to know that it's going to be okay. It looks scary now but first off find comfort in knowing that you are safe and I'm not going to let anything happen to you, trust me and just jump right into the air and enjoy this." I said a quick prayer and jumped.... All summer I've been attempting to conquer...

I wish I could convey my excitement about this series of blogs I'm embarking on the next three weeks but instead I'm going to hope that it is evident in my thoughts that I put down.  Fear has been a huge topic for me lately, and my fear has in a sense kept me from being completely transparent with God. It always blows my mind when God reaches down and drops something in my spirit. Tonight I'm in the car listening to the radio and ordinarily my mind doesn't really key in to things that are going on around me, but tonight God was telling me to pay attention. Natalie Grant was talking about her new single "Hurricane" and what inspired her to write it. She talked about how it's he was in a deep depression and she found solace and comfort in the story where Jesus walked on water.... I came home and I decided to brush up on my Bible skills regarding Jesus and his ministry. I went immediately to that story found in Matthew 14:22-33 but verse 28 is the one that re...

"I'll sit on his sunlight as long as he's sitting with me"  At the beginning of the summer I had one of the realist conversations ever with my dad and for the first time I was really listening. He talked about how I had been running from where God was calling me to for so long, trying to please everyone but me. He said "just be Creseida" you know that in 22 years of life that no one had ever told me to do that?  "As a father shows compassion to his children, so the  Lord  shows compassion to those who fear him ." Psalm 103:13 I'm very blessed I have two fathers, I have my real earthly blood dad and then I have God. God is like a father, tender and compassionate. Not every child is blessed to have a relationship with their earthly father but I'm very thankful that I have had my father. Make no mistake though just because you don't have a relationship with your biological father doesn't mean God is not there. God offers himself to us,...

In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. And God said, “Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear.” And it was so. God called the dry ground “land,” and the gathered waters he called “seas.” And God saw that it was good. (Genesis 1:1, 9, 10)  I think I have probably read this particular text about the creation so many times in my lifetime as a Christian, but today I'm seeing this text in a whole new light coming off of my vacation. I sat on the beach the other day and I stood in awe of where I was at that particular time in my life. I could not help but see how amazing God is. As I prepare for the next chapter of my life my goal is to look at it with fresh eyes. My goal is to see something new and amazing everyday that God gives me. I had a conversation with someone I worked with recently as I was preparing for a huge interview. He was telling me sometimes when people have been in the same position in life that it seems hard for ...

I have a real hard time with being real with myself. Because of that I keep a real tight circle of people who are what I would like to call "realist". Sometimes I feel like they come off mean but one of them made a very valid point this week when she said "no I just like to be transparent with myself as well as others...I have nothing to hide." That is when God hit me with a revelation for my blog this week. When a person is transparent it means that their motives are easily read by their actions, meaning they have nothing to hide. I consider myself to be a very guarded individual, I use feel like sometimes if I let people see the real me that they would leave. Not true, the people that are in my life love me for the goofy, dramatic, and guarded individual I am and they draw out the best in me.  What if we looked at God like that? I asked someone close to me about if its hard being transparent with God. Their response was "I think it's hard for everyone! I ...

" But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own"Matthew 6:33-34 You know what I am learning? That people worry about the craziest things! People worry about anything from finding their lost car at the grocery store to how their bills are going to get paid. While I know that everyone does not have the same faith in God that I do I sort of wished that they did. God speaks very clearly about worry more than once in the Bible yet people still stress out about things that they should turn over to God.  There have been many times in my life where I have not trusted God nor have I sought him like I should have. Four years ago today I remember sitting in my mothers room senior year of high school with her asking me what I wanted to do about college. I had sent out video after video of my golf swing and it was looking...