Greater Than

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Jesus>Fear

Amazed and afraid. That basically sums up this current season that I am in. Fear and anxiety have completely taken an unusual root in my life. I was afraid that I wouldn't be any good at this. I hate feeling like I’m losing control of what happens from here. I have a feeling that if I could get past this fear I could be incredible. I would be everything He created me to be. Even though I am in awe of where I am I still find myself fearful of entering into something new.


Can I just say this.... Fear irritates me.Like not a little but a lot. It completely can rob you of everything if you allow it to. I allowed fear to dictate where I was going and what I desire to be. I heard it whisper "you don't deserve this" and "why did you decide to do that" so much that it crippled me.

I could not breathe. I felt ugly. I had no idea what I was doing or where I was going next. I became so afraid of failing again I found myself never wanting to leave this bubble of protection that I had created around myself. I often feel like if I step out on faith that I will make the wrong decisions again One wrong move and I could go from being on top to starting all over. So I sit on the steps of my destiny too afraid to climb further, too exposed to go back.

Underneath this facade of strength there’s miles and miles of fear.. and for once, I would just like to see life the way it once was. I’m not even asking to be fearless. I just want to believe more than I’m afraid. I want to be the light that makes the world realize there was never anything there.

So what is standing in your way of being greater than fear? That you have to do it perfectly? What if I told you that God sees all of your imperfections and still has placed greatness inside of you. What if I told you that in the midst of every closed door that there is a door that is already open for you doing everything that you desire to do. All you have to do is be willing.

Be willing to hang onto the notion that there are great things out there for you. All around me I see lives crippled by the fear of not getting anything back. We choose to give less than we have too and complain receive less than our hearts we deserve.

 I don’t want to be that person anymore. I remember how afraid she was to live. Now I see the only thing holding me back was me. The only reason we can hear the whispers of our critics is because we don’t live loud enough. We become content to stifle our best so that we can feel like the rest. I don’t want to live a life that requires I lose a piece of me to gain a good opinion from them.

Father,
Help us to receive and believe that greatness exists in a world where fear 
darkens the amazing things you have in store for us. 
May doors be opened and new dreams realized. 

Signed,
Jesus>Fear

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